A trip

I finally talked to my youngest brother after a few weeks of silence. He went into the tank after an incident with his son - something gay/sexual that he doesn't want to discuss and I'm not sure I want to hear. Well, we talked about various things and then I told him about an upcoming trip that I had contemplated but the wife will be out of town, so I decided to not go. It's not that I'm afraid of doing something alone, it is actually intriguing but I decided to save the money for another time. He tells me he would like to go, so now I'm wondering if we should do it - two days out of town with him would be a first, he and I haven't travelled together since childhood, haven't been alone together for extended periods of time (days) since that time as well. Would it bring us closer together or push us apart? Would I learn more about my brother with this trip? I contemplated a trip with my oldest brother a couple years ago for the very reason to get to know him better, but he actually killed it/the idea, so he remains a mystery - I guess he doesn't really care to know me better.

Have you ever seen the movie Mother with Albert Brooks? A grown-up son moves home with his aging mother to get to know her better. That is, he wanted to discover the source of the tension between them and learn about his mother as a person rather than mom. It is a very funny movie with a great breakthrough at the end, it makes me wish I could do that with my own mom or even asshole dad. Do you know what your mother/father was like before you came along? Before they met your dad or had a family? What were their dreams? What jobs or career did they have? What were their hobbies, dreams, ...? Would you have liked them when they were young? Any chance you would have been friends? The whole concept fascinates me, and I am still grasping at it. With that said, maybe a couple days with my brother would teach both of us about the other. Really, we are such different people with vastly different lives. Deep down, I really want to do it, hell I'd pay for the whole thing, but the key will be if he follows through or will I be left holding the bag as is usual with him?