Something has changed ...

Regret is the hardest feeling to wrap your head around - it bores through your body and takes forever to get it out. I regret so many things today, but it is more stuff that I didn't do as opposed to actual bad decisions

• I regret still living within close proximity to my family. I always thought I owed them something, always thought family was super important, but it is all bullshit. Family, my family, only goal in life is to suck the life out of everybody around them - with an especial focus on me. In addition, while some have some blue collar skills, they have no education and no clear about public discourse on latest topics, no idea on politics, no basis in any subjects to make clear decisions on candidates, and all of them are living paycheck paycheck all the while making horrible financial decisions (sure, cash out retirement to buy a mobile home in a beautiful area with a Deliveranceesque vibe
• My family has no life experiences to use as a reference when making any large decisions.